It seems that the conscious choices that we think we need to make take an inordinate amount of time in our thoughts when we need to make a decision. We are often of two minds (or more) when we are trying to decide on a course of action.  We lose sleep, we sleep walk through the activities of our day while we waffle this way and that way, trying to know which answer is the correct one, worrying about how to tell what the right solution will be. Trying with all our power and might to think it through –over and over as if repetition of the pros and cons will result in us knowing what it is we should do. Mostly we continue on in a circular pattern, covering the same old ground and same old internal arguments over and over again. When that fails, we draw others into our dilemma asking for their take on the situation and then throwing their answers into the circular mess.

But what if, each problem that is presented to us is an offer to trust. An opportunity to believe. An invitation to risk that there is the perfect answer and even greater risk to know that it is ours without need for us to do anything. Possibly it is just not yet the time to receive it.   Possibly if we wait, we will discover there is no need to make any decision. Life flows and doors open without any struggle. Living could be simple if we lived as a child lives- in the moment, if we lived our life as it unfolds, enjoying what we have when we have it. We would not necessarily know when the answer to our “problem “was going to come, but we would be safe in knowing that it always does come. We could be safe in a world where everything has meaning and purpose and able to sense the mystery that carries all of us. But for that to happen we would need to trust, to trust that the Garden is benevolent, that what happens is for good, that we are cared for and appreciated and important. We would have to trust that we are loved fully and completely. We would let go and trust with the innocence of a young child that everything we need will come to us.

What stops us?  Ourselves.  We use our experiences to build stories of mistrust instead of stories of supply and safety. We think we need to protect ourselves. We let the bad overshadow the good. We let fear strip away our trust. But what is done can be undone. Resolve to start trusting again. Start with something small. Experiment with it. Trust happens when you believe